I've been gone for almost 3 weeks and I feel something has changed. I'm not talking about the people around me... it's me. I feel that something in me has changed. I'm cursing more & I'm almost always in a foul mood. Damn that China trip! I love the country and the people but experiencing what I've experienced really did something to me. I've never had someone treat me that way. I've never been screamed at that way. I've never feared going to work like how I did while I was there. I hated every moment of it and I couldn't wait to get home.
There was no time to breathe much less explore the place... I'm not exaggerating. I couldn't even eat with that bitch watching - it was like eating was a waste of time and for someone who doesn't really eat much that look can really kill me. We couldn't even check our mails or take calls from our teammates at home. We were cut off from everything. We were doing what she tells us to do and that was that. We were told NOT to think and simply do whatever she commands us to do like a couple of robots following our master. I didn't finish college to act the way someone wants me to act or follow through on something just because I was ordered to. I knew that whatever she wants us to do would lead us to more complications in the future but she just doesn't care! I know it's her name on the line but still. I wanted to scream - LISTEN UP, BITCH! - cause every time we try to explain the process to her she shuts us up and tells us to just show her. What the fuck?! Show you without explaining? I doubt she has this video recorder in her head or something that she can wind and rewind whenever she wants to review the steps. What's more she expects you to finish the report she wants given 2 hours without any mistakes at all and with her asking for it every 5 minutes! Damn! Leave me alone, bitch! Of course, I couldn't stop myself from crying from frustration that day. She was all "What did you do to this report?!" when she collected it before I could review it. How the heck can anyone work that way?!
Leaving her behind was the best for me. Leaving one of my so called friends behind made my day as well. I didn't expect that. If I've told myself before the trip that you'll be leaving one of your friends behind and be happy about it I would seriously hit myself. But then i didn't know that "she" was like that at all. That she was flirty, that she would allow a guy to sleep with her in our condo apartment without telling me. Yeah, she did say he was coming up but not that he was sleeping over. Some kind of warning would be great, you know! I could have met him in the hallway after showering with only a towel to cover me. I know he's a great guy but still.... a little courtesy would be great, you know! Also, bad mouthing other people behind their backs then crying asking "What did i ever do to them" after those same people answer you back through email is a bit off. You don't know what you did? seriously? You're helping destroy one whole team and you don't know why they're now going against you?! Come on! I finally saw WHY most of the people in the office did not like her especially after having spent time with her in China. I finally see the light! So now all i have to say is - you're going down, bitch!
Now what's frustrating me is that my team is under attack. Seriously? How the heck can you blame a team for fucking up on some things when they were simply thrown into the fray without receiving the proper training?! An hour and a half of training on SAP can not be considered proper training. Whoever says that it is is an asshole! How can this be done to a team that has worked hard to keep up with the changes?! How can this be done to a team that until now has been striving hard to keep up, who takes the bullshit their customers throw at them since nothing is shipping out?! How can they think of removing a team of hard working people who can do the job if only given the proper training?! I, for one, believe in our team and believe that someone over in China is, yet again, destroying the teams image. That's what they're good at - pointing the finger when they can't resolve an issue.
Argh!! I'm seriously pissed.
I'm sick and I'm sick of this situation.
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